I found out today that one of my friends was involved in a major accident. I heard first that she was involved in a car accident, but no more specifics. Then, as I was watching the news this morning, a ticker crawled by which said, "A woman is in serious condition after being hit by a car on I-80. She was retrieving a bike that had fallen off of her car." That's when I realized she wasn't in a car accident, she was hit by a car. A car probably going at least 60 miles an hour. Most likely while her kids watched.
Life is shitty sometimes.
Jen is in a coma, already having had two brain surgeries. Her husband posted an update that she has many broken bones and other injuries, but that the brain swelling is of the most concern.
Many broken bones.
As I grow older, it becomes more and more apparent to me that life can change so quickly. Sometimes I wonder if I will look back at my life right now and think, "Those were the good times. That was before XYZ happened." Mostly then, I just get really depressed and stop thinking about that. But not today. Today I am thinking a lot about that. And today I decided a few things:
Today, I will enjoy my kids. Enjoy them for the individuals they are. I will be happy that they are healthy.
Today, I will hold my husband's hand. I will tell him I love him - not as my usual thoughtless response - but because I really mean it.
Today, I will appreciate my parents. I will think of the memories they are building for my children and be grateful.
Today, I will give my house a hug. I will work to make sure it is a place of safety, security, and love.
And that's it. That's all that matters. Tomorrow can bring what it will, because I know that, for today, it was good.